The Dreaded 4-letter "D" Word

D.I.E.T.   I hate diets.  I hate dieting.  For most of my life, I never had to worry about keeping my weight off.  I was active throughout high school, the majority of college, grad school, and even after becoming a so-called "professional."  And then, something happened.  I got older, became very busy with work and my second graduate program, and then took a job where I traveled often.  I thought with an office from home, I would spend all of my "free" time working out....running on the treadmill, riding the bike, lifting weights.  But, it was quite the opposite.  I was exhausted spending the day at my desk, driving up to 8 hours in a day, and flying to Buffalo just to give a 30 minute presentation.  The last thing I wanted to do was hop on the treadmill.  I have since adopted 2 amazing kids, and changed jobs....so no more excuses!

I was waking up in the morning, and I hardly recognized myself anymore.  I try to avoid being in anybody's pictures.  And when I see them, I only want to rip them into a thousand pieces.  It can't be me in the pictures.  In high school, my nickname was "Skinny" (no kidding!).  I was never super thin, but, a healthy size 6, and then maybe an 8.  Not anymore.  Not even close. 

My kids have never seen "skinny Mom."  I know they love my the way I am, but I sure don't.  I hate what I look like.  I hate wearring spanks so that I can squeeze into my "fat" clothes.  I am tired of it.  So, I am finally doing something about it.

I have cut out cookies, my favorite thing in the whole world, a second to only my family (dogs included with family).  I have cut out sweets, ice cream, all pasta and bread (with the exception of a couple of small pieces of injera a week ago).  I haven't touched diet coke (my staple when I got into work), and am only drinking water (and a glass of skim milk), every. single. day.  No more wine.  No more beer (not a beer drinker anymore, anyway). 

Its only been 14 days.  I already feel better.  I have lost just over 10 pounds.  I have many more to go, however, I am looking forward to seeing the "old" new me again.